Where do broken hearts go?

Funny is...I've heard this question several times in the past few days. Made me realize...where "do" broken hearts go? if ever is there such a place? how to get there? Today its official... I have realized that the last person I was in a relationship with for the past 4 years, has moved on, he has erased me from his world, as if I never existed, Its just sad that after all the promises..it has come to this. This made me thinking...was he ever mine? was it even real? a lot of questions left unanswered... but I guess now, with what I have seen...its just simple...and the answer is staring me at the face. So yes, I am disappointed, broken, hurt and saddened. But I have to move on.

Stolen Moments...

“You have nothing. You have a piles of secrets and lies and you’re calling it love. And in the meantime, you’re letting your WHOLE life pass you by while THEY raise children and celebrate anniversaries and grow old together. You’re frozen in time. You’re holding your breathe. You’re a statue waiting for something that’s NEVER going to happen. Living for stolen moments in hotel lobbies and coat closets. You keep telling yourself it all adds up to something real because in YOUR mind it HAS to but they DON’T They won’t. They NEVER will because stolen moments aren’t a life. So you have nothing! You have NO ONE." -Olivia Pope

Broken

I feel so tired....i feel so broken...my head is spinning with thoughts and emotions...my heart..my chest is in so much pain...I cant think anymore...I just want to go numb. You have broken my heart...my trust...why? how could you? what have I done to deserve such pain? I feel so tired..with all the worries and problems...i just wanna close my eyes and slowly drift away.

Still trying....and fighting

I just wish you would know and understand what I’m going through right now...how hard and painful it is for me, to wait and hope. How hard it is to be helpless, to pretend and smile to the world, and say that everything is ok.... and to be all alone, I feel so alone in this battle. All my life, all I’ve been doing is give way, understand and cope with what very little consideration and gratitude I get in return... Life has given it to me so hard, and it’s been piling up one by one, and now I feel that I’m at breaking point...with no one to turn to, and hold on, I feel that in any time I’m about to give in. Sometimes I just want to close my eyes and float away even just for a moment to feel light and numb. I just wish that you would be more sensitive at times on how I feel, and that the smile you see doesn’t mean it’s all ok, and that “sorry” doesn’t easily take away the pain, and that sometimes the bruises takes time to heal...but I have no other choice but to pick myself up smile again... and try to just feel fine again.

Hurting....

I have this choking feeling, my chest is heavy and it’s getting harder to breath, I tried to put myself to sleep but the pain is so intense it won’t let me, I tried to hit the wall thinking physical pain can make the pain go away, but it’s still there...I can’t help it anymore, tears are rolling out my cheeks and I feel like my heart is about to explode...so much pain and anger, disappointment and despair, all I can do is curl up and cry, till my eyes go dry and till the pain turns to being numb.

Be Still thy Heart....

I am a woman, I have feelings, I am human I hurt too....
Sometimes I try not to think about it... and try to overcome my doubts and fears....
but sometimes questions left unanswered and just left hanging... just keeps on haunting

Why do I sometimes feel your avoiding my questions...
Why are their times that I feel your distance is growing...my hopes falling apart...
That this is just all but a dream...

Why is it sometimes i feel just falling in the abyss of despair and uncertainty...
Until when will my heart wait...until when will I keep on praying for that one day you be mine...

How do you teach a heart not to hurt?

How do you teach a heart not to hurt, not to feel the pain, sometimes I just wish I know the answer to this question, so when I’m drowning in sorrow and pain I’ll know what to do....
Sometime my heart and mind is growing tired of all the pain and hurt, but I can’t, I can’t just give up because I don’t want the people that I love and care for get hurt too....I don’t want them to suffer the pain that I’m going through.
I just hope that one day they’ll realise how much I love them and will keep on loving them till the end, and how hard it was not to show the hurt that slowly eating me up inside.

I Love you so much.....

I love you so much....it hurts
I love you so much....but sometimes it hurts

Sometimes I'm afraid to close my eyes..cause I might loose you...
All I want is to hold you and never let go...
All I pray is that I'll be able to make you happy...and content

I love you more each and every day

And I hope you’ll never go away
Life without you is not worth living
And for you all my love I am giving