Friday, August 26, 2005

Talk About Natural High!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Know my last post was really quite depressing, I guess I’m just not happy at all with what’s happening around me! But as they say in every dark cloud that hovers on you the sun is still shining, on the other side! So I wont let this things dampen my spirits!

I’ve just had a very interesting week; I've been trying to finish a book that a friend gave me! “Life after God” by Douglas Coupland very interesting and ironically a lot in that book just tends to reflect what I’m going thru right now, and I’ve just finished the book today and I guess it’s a very nice ending for a very interesting week! And a week it was!

Last Wednesday a friend invited me for an experience I will never forget, he has been talking about it since he found out that I was an avid runner! And advised that I try out running with his group! Hmmmm! He’s a member of an organization called “HASH”
A group that has been in history for quite sometime and it has branches all over the world! It’s composed of different people from all walks of life, who happen to have the same passion and that is running! And it’s not just your typical jog in the park, Its a very rigorous ritual that these people take seriously! “HASHing” as my friend says is not just a race it’s an experience! “Its not the destination that matters it’s the journey!” Well it was I've never thought that I could push my self to the limit, but I did! Along with the motivation of my friend! This experience is really quite something running into the jungle and into different terrains, is no easy task! Rocks, rough roads, vertical climbs, dense vegetation, downhill descends “slippery ones”, you name it they’ve got it! But aside from the tough runs, you also get to appreciate the things you tend to disregard! And that’s your environment! For the first time ever since I've been here in Malaysia, this is the first time I seen the other side of it! I was able to enjoy my self with nature’s natural beauty. As I pushed my self to its every once of energy, to climb the highest point of the run, I was rewarded with a great view! The sun setting from the horizon! And a rainbow! Who would have guessed that you could enjoy both natural beauties at the same time? And to top it all I get to share it with a special friend! I guess I owe him the experience! And I was very happy that he shared it to me. “I hope I’m not getting to mushy here! but I guess sometimes, you get blessed in simple ways! But in reality Blessing are never simple at all! Its just in your own perspective how you appreciate things!" This week I really felt rejuvenated! In spite all of the negativeness that had tried to pull me down! And I guess it’s not the last but I have always believed that everyday is a constant battle! And in every battle there’s always victory.

Friday, August 19, 2005

Becoz im A Girl

* I just can't understand the ways, Of all the men and their mistakes.
You give them all your heart, and then they rip it all away...-
You told me how much you loved me,
And how our love was meant to be.
And i believed in you, i thought that you would set me free...
(chorus)
You should've just told me the truth,
That i wasn't the girl for you...
Still i didn't have a clue, So my heart depended on You... Whoah
Although i'll say 'i hate u' now,
Although i'll shout and curse you out...
I'll always have love for you,
Because i am a girl

* Been told a man will leave you cold,
Get sick of you and bored...
I know that it's no lie,
I gave my all still i just cry. Never again will i be fooled,
to give my all when nothing's true...
I won't be played again,
but i will fall in love again...
(chorus)

You should've just told me the truth,
That i wasn't the girl for you...
Still i didn't have a clue, So my heart depended on You... Whoah
Although i'll say 'i hate u' now,
Although i'll shout and curse you out...
I'll always have love for you, Because i am a girl---
I loved u so... now u leave me in the cold,
How could this be, i thought that u'd only love me...
Into the night, i will pray that you're alright..
You hurt me so, I can't let u go ---
(bridge)

You took advantage of my willingness to do anything for love,
Now i'm the only one in pain... will you please take it all away~ Oh~
(chorus)
Never thought born being a girl, How i can love you and be burned...
And now i will build a wall, to never get torn again~
Although i'll say 'i hate u' now, Although i'll shout and curse you out...
I'll always have love for you,
Because i am a girlAlthough i'll say 'i hate u' now,
Although i'll shout and curse you out... I'll always have love for you,
Because i am a girl