Hurting....

I have this choking feeling, my chest is heavy and it’s getting harder to breath, I tried to put myself to sleep but the pain is so intense it won’t let me, I tried to hit the wall thinking physical pain can make the pain go away, but it’s still there...I can’t help it anymore, tears are rolling out my cheeks and I feel like my heart is about to explode...so much pain and anger, disappointment and despair, all I can do is curl up and cry, till my eyes go dry and till the pain turns to being numb.